Sarah RabDAU and Self​-​Employed Assassins

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"There's not a misstep among these piano-heavy tunes that pack a pretty consistent emotional wallop from beginning ('Crushing') to end ('Self-Employed Assassin'). Among the many, many high points are 'Autumn Spills', the devastating ballad 'Boxing Helena,' 'Riots and Revolutions,' 'San Francisco' and 'Pillar of Tears'. Rabdau and Graber are a pitch-perfect team"-The Daily News

"A piano and drums set-up could easily veer into maudlin, but here, Rabdau and Graber conjure something closer to a lost Lauper song pounded out in a pub." -The Boston Phoenix (featuring the download for 'Jackie')

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released January 20, 2009

Sarah Rabdau-piano, keys, wurlitzer, vocals; Matt Graber- drums; Peter Moore-guitar, bass, keyboards, programming, vocals; wide-range fretless guitar- Scott Dakota; Violin- Meredith Cooper, Andrew Beer; Cello- Valerie Thompson, Fabrizio Marretta; Viola- Andrew Eng; Clarinet- Ken Field; Man Choir- Joel Simches, Ad Frank, Izzy Maxwell, Peter Moore, Will Ragano, Hari Hassin
Produced by Peter Moore and Sarah Rabdau

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Track Name: Crushing
You’re always crushing everyone you love
You’re always crushing everyone you love

You’ve done it, you’ve won it all
Every pretty penny you stole
Congratulations on your success
I hope all the people that you stepped on
Didn’t stain your dress
And you did it all on your own
You and the army of workers under your control
With their help they can have a piece
Of the biggest disaster in history

You’re always crushing everyone you love
You’re always crushing everyone you love

They’ll pledge allegiance to your demons
That you can’t face alone
Lights and cameras, a meal for the mantis
A pose for the photo op the proof you cared before you
Drop them all

You’re always crushing everyone you love
You’re always crushing everyone you love
Track Name: Autumn Spills
I slept a thousand hours
Last night my dreams were photographed
Morning sips from heaven’s cup
While he’s still in my bed

Autumn Spills into my window
I think I’ll go back to him
Autumn Spills into my window
I think I’ll go back to him

I will take him in my arms and pass on these well wishes
Touch him where the extensions of his body need caressing

Autumn Spills into my window
I think I’ll go back to him
The rest of the day is carried away by the hours I’ll ravish him

I will take him in my arms and pass on these well wishes
Touch him where the extensions of his body need caressing
I will take him in my arms
I will take him in my arms
Track Name: Queen of the Castle
Take your shoes and all your things
And don’t come my way again
If I see you before the century turns it will be too soon
Give me miles to walk and blisters on my feet before our eyes have to meet again
Before our eyes have to meet again

It’s death before loving you
It’s death before loving you

Think you can chop my cherry tree and not give me a view
Think you can reap from the bounty of my heart, so true
I’m not a service you call for
I’m the queen of this castle and I’m done with you
I’m done with you

It’s death before loving you
It’s death before loving you

My heart’s filled with chocolate so rich I’ll melt for anything
You’re a craving I myself can satiate
Satiate
Satiate
Satiate

It’s death before loving you
It’s death before loving you
Track Name: Boxing Helena
Time is running out to take it back
And I’m running low
If wishes could come true you’d keep me in a glass box to view
Never change or grow, saw off my legs to keep me still
What you could never tell
I don’t do well kept in one place
But I’ve got a stone, I’ve got a rock, I’ve got a monument to throw
And when I’m out I’ll crawl around, find my legs and sew
Teach myself to walk without a cane to hold on
Out the door you’ll watch me leave, a monument through your heart
‘But I love you’, you call to me
But if you loved me you’d a let me free
‘You don’t love me, just the idea of me
Don’t worry darlin’ you’re not losing anything’.
Track Name: Riots and Revolutions
300 million lives past the point of no return
It came and went with cum stains left and hardly a lesson learned
Hello, this just in… blood in the streets today
But turn your lights off and it will go away
In the dark and arrogant, I’m a good American

You want it faster
Something easy
It’s what you’re after
Here you go

Riots and Revolutions
a clip of a full song
we would sit and listen through
if 10 seconds weren’t so long

Hello, this just in…ten more died today
But turn your lights off and it will go away
In the dark and arrogant, I’m a good American

You want it faster
Something easy
It’s what you’re after
Here you go
Here you go
Track Name: Weekend
In the morning our bodies lie
further apart than the day before
Pretty soon you'll be in Los Angeles
and I'll be in New York.

A world apart across the dinner table
in a silence you can see
That you keep swimming for me is devastating
So what’s a few thousand kisses when there’s a million misses?

It’s always raining on the weekend

You pull me closer to you and I can’t breathe
The tighter you hold the more you suffocate me
You think you’ll get to me this time but I’m dead inside

It’s always raining on the weekend
It’s always raining on the weekend
It’s always raining on
It’s always raining on
Track Name: San Francisco
I’ll see you out in San Francisco
I could stand a change
It’s been years since last I saw you, but everything’s the same
As you know I don’t socialize, it mostly wastes my time
Since I’m just silent when I’m talking in my head to you
Talking in my head to you

Laughing, cursing, and converting the faithful to our side
Let’s have a cigarette and toast dawn with a bottle of wine
My dear friend I miss you more than I could ever say
We don’t speak for months but I’m talking in my head to you
Talking in my head to you
Track Name: Jackie
Lookin’ for so long he got hunger pains
But a good record could keep him full for days
Momma wouldn’t pay his rent
‘Til he got his head checked

Jackie had his first hit single on the radio
Took him 40 years but it still went gold
He was coastin’ twenty-five on a coattail ride, but no
Jackie didn’t burn out, he burned up his backup band

The neighbors’ sons all married well
Good jobs, great money living in subdivision hell
And all of this he knew
All of this he knew
All of this he knew but did it anyway

Jackie had his first hit single on the radio
Took him 40 years but it still went gold
He was playin 45’s when Nixon resigned, but no
Jackie didn’t burn out, he burned up his backup band

Got his BA in business charades and double speak
He used to be so happy
He traded lives for a suit tied in misery
It’s all a lie, he’s past his prime, watch out for Jackie
Watch out for Jackie

All of this he knew
All of this he knew
All of this he knew, but did it anyway

Go Jackie!
Track Name: Pillar of Tears
These walls and I, it’s our last time
That we’ll hold each other up
I’m off to find more ways that I can
close myself in

Used to be I’d run my hand down
These halls and have everything
You could hear me sing
From the next room your laughter’d ring
And we’d fill this place

I know each corner and how it was covered
From the first year to the eighth
What dishes were broken, birthday dinners,
Where love was made
There was a time when all this was mine
And you were still here
What plaster, paint, and an arm’s length distance can make
disappear

Turns out you were light as a feather
And I was the weighted one
I’d let you go under my prescription
Said in a voice riddled with derision
And believe it was your choice

I know each corner and how it was covered
From the first year to the eighth
What dishes were broken, birthday dinners,
Where love was made.
There was a time when all this was mine
And you were still here
What plaster, paint, and an arm’s length distance can make
disappear

All our friends know I pushed away
Tore it all down in a day
What was left were all my clear mistakes
And this Pillar of Tears
Pillar of Tears
Track Name: Man Child
Dad moved to California as another place to hide
Left in such a hurry he forgot to erase the websites
I never claimed innocence but did not expect to find
that 6 certainly does turn into to 9

Hey, there, Suzie Q
look at what my daddy can do
he'll put your ass up on the screen
I was once the center of his world
but now every girl is daddy's girl

Didn't know whether to laugh or cry
heard he whispers from downstairs about his appetite
Thought mother's nagging was what drove him over the line
Turns out he just likes to look at her from behind

Hey, there, Johnny Boy
look at all of my daddy's toys
do you need some privacy?
I was once the center of his world
but now every girl is daddy's girl

Tell me how to act if I don't come out with it
you're nothing but a Man Child
for you I won't pretend you're the one who ran
and now you can't hide

MAN CHILD
MAN CHILD
Track Name: Stop Calling
8 months to self-destruct
What’s another year of this?
Conniving in your sickness
With a residue of tenderness
I can see through the hand that you’ll play
Cuz we are one in the same

And you’ve got my guilt wrapped around your finger
How much is enough
Will the deal ever be done
Will it ever be done

The psychotic voices that keep haunting you
Are haunting me too
They want me gone just as much as you do
I get your best wishes through voodoo dolls
And death kisses
I know what you want for me

And you’ve got my guilt wrapped around your finger
How much is enough
Will the deal ever be done
Will it ever be done

STOP CALLING
Will it ever be done
STOP CALLING
Will it ever be done
Will it ever be done

I’ve got the comfort of nothing holding me tight
And I can’t breathe easy with you in sight
Track Name: Self-Employed Assassin
If your relatives say anything about my soul
Hanging with the devil up on Hades row
I’m a gonna pick some poppies and make some belladonna tea
I’ll show them the devil in me

Then tears will drop like rain as shadows fall
But you should’ve loved me

I’m the hunter you’re the hunted
Kiss me hard and slow
While I put some arsenic into your merlot
Shouldn’t turn your back on breasts as soft as this
Now you’ll never know what you’ll miss

Then tears will drop like rain as shadows fall
But you should’ve loved me
You should’ve loved me
You should’ve love me